"Amazing Grace"

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That sav’d a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears reliev’d;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believ’d!

Thro’ many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace has brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promis’d good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease;
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who call’d me here below,
Will be forever mine.

A beautifully poignant song about the grace of God. Makes me wonder, are we actually deserving of such Grace? What have we done to redeem ourselves in the eyes of our Maker? Have we done what He asked? Are our motives pure? Have we bettered the lives of the people around us? What are we here on this earth for? Are we just counting the days till we die or is there a more meaningful purpose to our life? I realize that I have this tendency to have short term vision, that I live encapsulated within a bubble, only caring about today and not about eternity. Truth be told I think I'm a very poor Christian, I'm afraid.. Am I even sure that I'm saved? Hmm..

God, I pray to you for light on how to live my life the way You want me to. Amen.

They love me unconditionally, ALL the time.

They tolerate my hang-ups better than anyone I know.

They kill evile FLYING cockroaches for me.

They try to solve all my problems for me, even at their own expense.

They always make me feel that I'm loved by their gestures.

Mummy, papa, sorry I'm such a bitch these days...  I know I don't say it enough but I love you guys.